A whirlwind of events have made the process of writing very difficult. I haven’t had any words, and instead of forcing myself, I decided to write when I was ready. These past few weeks have been filled with many challenges that I had to face head-on. My priority has been to keep myself busy, which is why I’ve buried myself with work. As I mentioned on the previous post, I recently redesigned my portfolio and am currently working on a digital content shop which will include WordPress Themes and other goodies, this has been on my to-do list for a very long time and I’ve been working on some themes on and off for the past few months.
Everything has been going well on that front so I’ve just immersed all my energies on that project. It’s also a great distraction.
I use Google Keep for my to-do lists and there’s a long list for future blog posts for this site, some of them I’ve already started writing so I’m pretty sure I will be writing quite a bit in the near future.
This past Tuesday I completed another semester, and I was glad. Glad that it was over. These past couple of months have been really tough, both academically and emotionally (deadly combination). I’m still struggling with the math classes, which are the classes that I have left for me to get my degree. It can be disheartening, and it makes me feel like a failure when I can’t pass those classes. I’m good at everything else: history, psychology, science, programming, you name it. When it comes to math, it’s a different story, especially with my anxiety mixed in with all of it.
I’ve been learning to reduce those thoughts I get about failure through therapy, but it’s a work in progress. Even though I still have some time to go before I get my degree, I’m trying to make the best of it by taking different classes, even if they’re not related to my field. Another motivation is finally getting my portfolio up, along with some other projects, which will keep me busy and with a more optimistic outlook.
It’s all about picking yourself up, trying your best, and seeing a positive, even when it’s a ‘negative’ situation. I’m trying, and I will get better with stopping those negative thoughts.