This quote describes my current situation perfectly. Since August of last year, I’ve fallen back into a depression. I’ve dealt with depression for most of my life, but these past few episodes have been really bad. That, with my anxiety issues, have created a ‘black hole’ as I like to call it, that’s been draining me emotionally and sometimes it’s extremely tough to tolerate and deal with.
I’ve pondered about posting about my mental health for years, but ever since I’ve been working with things mental health related (My boyfriend’s organization, and attending/helping with support groups), it has given me a new perspective about being open about your situation and raising awareness. It’s okay to talk about it, and I have nothing to hide. Hopefully this is the beginning of a more honest blog, this is where I can write about anything I want, and I should take advantage of it.
Like the title of this post says, I’m slowly winning and dealing with battles, that people cannot see. I’m hopeful it will get better, especially now that I’m seeing a professional that can help me with all these issues.
Tomorrow is my Peer Specialist certification test, which means that if I pass, I’ll become a Certified Peer Specialist (CPS for short). I’m really excited, this past two years have been a journey. I’ve learned so much about mental health; I want to to keep learning and helping people.
I will take a Wraparound training next week, which will also give me a certification. I’m trying to gain as much knowledge as I can. I have to admit, being a part of all these things makes me want to change majors and study Psychology. Who knows, maybe after I get my bachelors degree in Computer Science I can pursue Psychology.
Wish me luck!